I know, I know. The header is a mile and a half long. Such is life. I think that this week has been a trial. I know I left off on a positive note in my last post, and I am glad that I did. This week hasn't been horrible, just a trial in the sense that I really have a strong need to push through material so that my students are exposed, and I feel that I am just not going anywhere. I don't know about you, but I strongly dislike spinning my wheels for long.
And then, as I was leaving school, I reflected back on my day, and out of the blue I said outloud to myself, "I am a boring teacher!". I looked around to see if I really HAD said that, of if someone was around saying what I was feeling. I have long told my students that a bored person is a boring person. Is that true in reverse? Is a boring person a bored person?
As I look back over this week and the other weeks that have added up to the 108 school day, I know that I have taught all of my students something, but I wanted to teach them everything. What is the course of action with a student that simply seems to have given up? I can't give up on him/her. It isn't in my blood to do that. I don't want to yell or degrade, that never made anyone a better person- not to mention it is stooping to a lower level and is totally beneath the behavior of a teacher. I want to shake them (gently) and show them their future (darn crystal ball thing) and say, "Is this really what you want? To be a fry cook (or motel maid, store clerk, etc)for the rest of your life, not because you chose too, but because you HAD too! Because you didn't have a better education that allowed to work in a higher paying, more satisfying job???"
Anyways, I don't have a crystal ball and I don't touch my students (other than a high-five each time they enter the room) so those options are out. I refuse to degrade (at least I try really, really hard to be good), and so that leaves me right where I currently am. Sitting at home, working hard to put on a happy face for my family, and knowing that something has to change somewhere before I have a mental or emotional breakdown. That may seem dramatic, but I assure you it is not.
I won't give up, I won't give in, I will Keep On Trying!